The Phoenix Rises

 A little background.  I was working with my Mistress and she is having me train my bottom.  She wants to take it on Christmas.  So I was plugged for a couple of hours.  After releasing fully yesterday on Thurs, by the afternoon my bottom was hurting.  It wasn't bad but definitely tender.  Got slightly worse.  Wasn't bad at all but definitely there and I get very sad because I knew that I could not get this stupid bottom ready within the next 10 days for Mistresses desires. Mistress had said that I WOULD take her cock whether it was painful or not. I HATE pain and I knew I would do it any way for her and hurt myself and I was afraid that would tie negative feelings to her and so far, every single feeling with her is positive so I did NOT want to pollute those waters. I know she loves me and will care for me but I LOOOOOVE when the lust takes her and she starts being very direct and naughty with me and that happens when I'm a good girl and do every...

 Where does one begin . . .  When I tell you that only about a week has transpired since I began this transformation, you will, most likely, dismiss it as a dopamine-fueled lust romp that will fade. My entire purpose of writing this blog is to prove to you that is not the case and how I've found my true place due to some amazing people.  First, a small amount about me.  I am a trans ( I think, still figuring everything out) pansexual fully bodied, non-modified girl.  The psychology from my childhood to now has been scrutinized extensively and I can go in it if anyone has any interest in it.  I mostly just wanted to make this blog because I found something the other day that read.  I can't find it and don't remember it exactly but in essence it read that you should always put your view out there because society changes very very very slowly but each viewpoint towards peace and enlightenment plants more seeds for the coming world. I'm still collecting my...